Testimony - Feeling God at the right moment

I am going to write about something a little different. This is part of my testimony...

The past 8 months has been a very tough time in my life. One of the most stressful times in my life. We have these little boys that we are adopting and one of them we knew for sure we was going to be able to keep. The other one we was not sure of. I am very attached to the boys and my heart loves them so much.

The time come to where the biological mother had to do a lot of things to be able to get one of them back. I knew in my heart the right thing to do was to pray for her. For a long time I could not do it. I was selfish and wanted to keep both of them. I began to pray and pray. I was still stressed and worried. I had put all my time and energy into the boys. I love them. I was driving down the road and heard a song and it stuck in my head. It said in this song (that nothing compares to what happened at Calvary). That is where Jesus died for our sins. God gave his only son for us. His only SON!!  I am so selfish. I then realized, God has control not me. I could do nothing to stop what happens. I wanted this little boy for myself, not thinking about what God wanted for him or what he wanted me to do for him. I just wanted him. I wanted him to stay with me and his brother I didn't care about how the mother felt. I felt she had her chance with him and ruined it. God placed in my path one day to meet her. I meet her and my heart poured out for her. I could feel her cry as if she and I some how had a connection. She is a nice person but she has problems. We all have problems some have them worse than others. After meeting with her I started praying for her. I still wanted the boy now so don't get me wrong. Something inside me started to change. I knew God had been working on me about being more compassionate toward people but I was really changing. My heart began to really open. I cried out for God to help me because I had no idea what I was suppose to do. I couldn't talk about it really. It was just so different than the way I had planned it to be. It wasn't me. I began to pray more and more.
One day I just asked God to please use me to be a witness to her. Show her my life and how the boys are.
I prayed that God would use me to do his will and not the will of my own. These boys are precious.
I knew what ever God's plan was it would be done.
Finally, the day of court I sat with my husband and case worker. I was scared and crying. I was hoping that she wouldn't even show up for the court. I had all sorts of crazy things inside my head that day...
Well here we are again...The brain trying to run things.... instead of letting God do his work...

We in the court room now.....
The judge asked her if she wanted to give up her rights and let us adopt the boy.
She paused for a minute and then SHE TURNED TO ME AND LOOKED ME STRAIGHT IN MY EYES      I  was crying and had tears falling I couldn't help it. I was scared that she may want to keep him.
BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN
I FELT GOD RIGHT THEN !!!!!  I could feel him holding me and telling me...............IT'S ALRIGHT........
HE IS YOURS...........
Oh my what peace came from that feeling... Praise God............ PRAISE GOD........... PRAISE GOD........ 
she was still starring at me ........

FINALLY the judge asked us if we would like to talk before we go any further. 
We said yes.
We went in the other room and talked and we agreed that we could send pictures so she could see them grow. She knew she couldn't take care of them.
We only had a few seconds so we had to hurry and talk.
I was not able to witness to her at this time to bring her to CHRIST but I believe it will come a time I will be able to.
We went back in court and started back in session. She surrendered her rights. We have this child now. He is ours.
We also agreed she would make contact with us first. We gave her our phone number .
Amazing how God uses people in different situations to bring you closer to him.
I was taught several lessons from this 8 month trial I was going through...............

GOD IS IN CONTROL AND WE CAN'T CHANGE HIS WILL.....
WHAT EVER THE OUTCOME IS IN ANY SITUATION IS WHAT GOD WANTS......
WE HAVE TO TRUST HIM AND PUT OUR FAITH IN HIM.....
WE ARE TO NEVER JUDGE ANYONE IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE.....
WE NEVER KNOW WHAT GOD HAS PLANNED FOR US...
WE MUST ALWAYS KEEP OUR FAITH....
WE MUST NEVER PRAY FOR OUR WILL........

SO MUCH I HAVE LEARNED.......

I do not believe that he is through with us in this situation. I feel he wants me to lead her to him. I feel that she will come around one day and except CHRIST and change her life. I just hope it comes sooner than later. We are not promised tomorrow. She knows how we live and that we are Christians.

We never got a chance to just sit down and talk to each other. We only had a few seconds in the room together and then we had to go back out to the court room. I believe God will put her in my path again.
I will witness to her... She knows we are in church and love the Lord.

IF THIS IS HIS WILL, IT WILL BE DONE.......