Monday, May 30, 2011

Im writing to update the court message, bilogical mother and I are in contact with each other now and its a God that has placed us in contact. God is good.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Testimony - Feeling God at the right moment

I am going to write about something a little different. This is part of my testimony...

The past 8 months has been a very tough time in my life. One of the most stressful times in my life. We have these little boys that we are adopting and one of them we knew for sure we was going to be able to keep. The other one we was not sure of. I am very attached to the boys and my heart loves them so much.

The time come to where the biological mother had to do a lot of things to be able to get one of them back. I knew in my heart the right thing to do was to pray for her. For a long time I could not do it. I was selfish and wanted to keep both of them. I began to pray and pray. I was still stressed and worried. I had put all my time and energy into the boys. I love them. I was driving down the road and heard a song and it stuck in my head. It said in this song (that nothing compares to what happened at Calvary). That is where Jesus died for our sins. God gave his only son for us. His only SON!!  I am so selfish. I then realized, God has control not me. I could do nothing to stop what happens. I wanted this little boy for myself, not thinking about what God wanted for him or what he wanted me to do for him. I just wanted him. I wanted him to stay with me and his brother I didn't care about how the mother felt. I felt she had her chance with him and ruined it. God placed in my path one day to meet her. I meet her and my heart poured out for her. I could feel her cry as if she and I some how had a connection. She is a nice person but she has problems. We all have problems some have them worse than others. After meeting with her I started praying for her. I still wanted the boy now so don't get me wrong. Something inside me started to change. I knew God had been working on me about being more compassionate toward people but I was really changing. My heart began to really open. I cried out for God to help me because I had no idea what I was suppose to do. I couldn't talk about it really. It was just so different than the way I had planned it to be. It wasn't me. I began to pray more and more.
One day I just asked God to please use me to be a witness to her. Show her my life and how the boys are.
I prayed that God would use me to do his will and not the will of my own. These boys are precious.
I knew what ever God's plan was it would be done.
Finally, the day of court I sat with my husband and case worker. I was scared and crying. I was hoping that she wouldn't even show up for the court. I had all sorts of crazy things inside my head that day...
Well here we are again...The brain trying to run things.... instead of letting God do his work...

We in the court room now.....
The judge asked her if she wanted to give up her rights and let us adopt the boy.
She paused for a minute and then SHE TURNED TO ME AND LOOKED ME STRAIGHT IN MY EYES      I  was crying and had tears falling I couldn't help it. I was scared that she may want to keep him.
BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN
I FELT GOD RIGHT THEN !!!!!  I could feel him holding me and telling me...............IT'S ALRIGHT........
HE IS YOURS...........
Oh my what peace came from that feeling... Praise God............ PRAISE GOD........... PRAISE GOD........ 
she was still starring at me ........

FINALLY the judge asked us if we would like to talk before we go any further. 
We said yes.
We went in the other room and talked and we agreed that we could send pictures so she could see them grow. She knew she couldn't take care of them.
We only had a few seconds so we had to hurry and talk.
I was not able to witness to her at this time to bring her to CHRIST but I believe it will come a time I will be able to.
We went back in court and started back in session. She surrendered her rights. We have this child now. He is ours.
We also agreed she would make contact with us first. We gave her our phone number .
Amazing how God uses people in different situations to bring you closer to him.
I was taught several lessons from this 8 month trial I was going through...............

GOD IS IN CONTROL AND WE CAN'T CHANGE HIS WILL.....
WHAT EVER THE OUTCOME IS IN ANY SITUATION IS WHAT GOD WANTS......
WE HAVE TO TRUST HIM AND PUT OUR FAITH IN HIM.....
WE ARE TO NEVER JUDGE ANYONE IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE.....
WE NEVER KNOW WHAT GOD HAS PLANNED FOR US...
WE MUST ALWAYS KEEP OUR FAITH....
WE MUST NEVER PRAY FOR OUR WILL........

SO MUCH I HAVE LEARNED.......

I do not believe that he is through with us in this situation. I feel he wants me to lead her to him. I feel that she will come around one day and except CHRIST and change her life. I just hope it comes sooner than later. We are not promised tomorrow. She knows how we live and that we are Christians.

We never got a chance to just sit down and talk to each other. We only had a few seconds in the room together and then we had to go back out to the court room. I believe God will put her in my path again.
I will witness to her... She knows we are in church and love the Lord.

IF THIS IS HIS WILL, IT WILL BE DONE.......

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Jesus Changes Your Life

When we enter into a real relationship with Jesus, we will never be the same. If we are out running wild and partying all the time, we will eventually stop. Jesus will change us from the inside out. Our hearts will become more like his. We will want to serve and worship the LORD more than ever. We will learn his ways. We come to him as a sinner and we let him change us. We don't change our self. JESUS changes us. If we have a company and we are doing things and saying things to hurt people, we will eventually stop doing it, because JESUS will change your outlook on people and our self. You will not want to hurt anyone and you will start to be honest with people. JESUS is all about honest and loyalty. He is LOVE. He doesn't do things to hurt people. You will see him in a whole new light in your life. Your friends will not understand you at first, but if they come to know JESUS for themselves then they will understand. The choices we make in our life will become so different. We will choose to make right choices instead of wrong choices. We will try to do better for ourselves and help others to become better people. We will change our attitudes. Our minds will total change. We will not speak bad language. Your over all life will change. You will not look at people the same. You will look at your husband, children, and everyone so different. We are all children of GOD. We should all start to see this. You will try to help your children, husband, family, friends, and everyone to do what is right in the LORD. Children are miracles that God gives us. We should realize this. We should treat others as we want to be treated. We will love as if we have never knew what love was. It is so different. Its amazing. The love of your heart will open up so freely and you will love people with a different outlook. You will want to help people that you thought you didn't even like. Love from JESUS is the most awesome love I have experienced. I praise GOD for allowing me to know his love. I mean this from the bottom of my heart. I am opening up more every day and experiencing love from the depths of my soul. It is so awesome to experience. I am forgiving the people who have hurt me in the past. I am moving on with my life. I am living for my JESUS. My love is from him. I know everything I have experienced is for some reason, even though I can't explain it. He is just so good to me. I love you JESUS and thank you for saving me. I was and I still am a sinner. Thank you for the cross. I love you. In 1 John 4:19 - this is how I understand this verse.......
1 John 4:19
We love because he first loved us...
                                                                    LOVE IN CHRIST
                                                                    Dawn Wells Goss

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Who We Are / Who You Are

THIS WAS AN EMAIL I GOT LAST YEAR AND I KEPT IT BECAUSE IT MADE SENSE...... I AM POSTING THIS BECAUSE GOD WANTS THE WORLD TO SEE IT. ......

No matter who you are. No matter how rich you are. No matter how much power you have. No matter what your resources are. No matter what your connections are. No matter what your background is, or your fame. ONE OF THESE DAYS, your going to be in a position when you realize that the only help your going to get will come from ALMIGHTY GOD....!!!
If your sick, no matter how good your doctor is or how potent your medicine is, you will have to realize that doctors can only treat you. HEALING comes from the divine source and only the divine source.
Every breath we take is a blessing from above. Our ability to walk, talk, and reason, our individual talents and abilities are all gifts from GOD that he has endowed us with. Making no two of us the exact same. You need go no further than our fingerprints to prove this.
We are all wondrously made in the image of GOD!!! We did not descend from some prehistoric simian ancestor. We were created and given our individuality by the hand of GOD!!!
Human Beings are not the end product of evolution, but of a compassionate creation.
The Earth is not just some piece of rock that was separated from the sun in the big bang and just happened to fall into the third place in the solar system.
There is nothing random in the whole universe it is designed and maintained. There is no one star out of place and untold galaxy after galaxy's are where they are suppose to be, and doing whatever GOD designed them to do.
The Earth is located in the perfect place in the solar system to sustain life. COULD THAT BE BY CHANCE? NOT A CHANCE!!!!!!!
Have you ever stopped and considered the intricacies of the human body and brain, the conscience, or the way a tree lies dormant in the winter and gloriously comes back to life in the spring?
Did you ever think about how the water on earth never disappears but is moved around and recycled over and over again, evaporating into the air and coming back again as life giving rain? BY CHANCE, COULDN'T BE!!!!
Did you ever consider the wonder of birth, how a tiny baby is infused with life in it's mother's womb, but doesn't breath until it is delivered into the world?
There is no way that this world and its inhabitants just happened. There is no way that man with an eternal soul just crawled up out of some primordial ooze in the form of a microscopic amoeba and became the intelligent creature he is.
There is no way that a man and a animal can from the same original blob of whatever it is supposed to be. That is impossible. Man is capable of thought. Capable of love and has an eternal soul.
Animals no matter how smart you perceive them to be, operate on instinct and are incapable of real love and have no soul.
I know that some of the supposedly smartest people on this planet believe in the evolutionary theory. They may be super intelligent but they believe a LIE, a LIE straight from the pits of HELL...
Everybody has a moment of truth in their lives. It could be lying down on an operating table in a hospital or a time when your in physical danger or your world is just about to fall apart for some reason or another.
There will come a time in every body's life when they will become absolutely helpless, when the only thing that can save you is something greater than yourself.
Who do you call on at a time like that? Mother Earth? Mother Nature? Charles Darwin?
There is only one power that is greater than any crisis you'll ever face and only one source of help....
His name is JEHOVAH, ALMIGHTY GOD, PRINCE OF PEACE, LORD OF LORDS, CREATOR OF ALL THAT EXISTS, and every thesis that has ever been written, all the historical facts that have ever been twisted, all the theories of imminent men, the governments, armies and weapons of the world will never change that fact......
It is eternal!!!!!!!!! what do you think??????
pray for our troops, and for our country...........
GOD BLESS AMERICA

Deuteronomy 33:27
The everlasting GOD is your place of safety and his arms will hold you up forever.

Thank you father GOD of the earth who made the heavens. Thank you for all the facts you are placing in front of me. Teaching me to spread your word. The gift of life. The love you are showing me and my family. Showing us your heart and helping to deal with mine. Following you each and every day is so important to me and I want to continue to be in your arms for ever, Lord thank you for all you have done in so many people's lives. Please help us to not grow cold and weary and to help bring others to you. Lord when I am tired please carry me. I love you, In Jesus name AMEN...........

Monday, February 7, 2011

To Know Love

And to know the love of CHRIST, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fullness of GOD.
Ephesians 3:19

I believe to truly have the fullness of  JESUS is to let our hearts began to open up to him. We have to be willing to open up to him for all understanding. Even though we may never really understand everything. God will reveal to us what he wants us to understand in his time. We should be happy to be able to walk with JESUS everyday and spread the gospel to everyone. Pray for spiritual blessings and truly mean it, they will come. We need to stay in fellowship with other Christians so that we can gain understanding and love for one another. We are also being filled in fellowship with the love of CHRIST and all his fullness. JESUS is with us. He will reveal his love to us as our hearts truly desire to know more. We need to have an intimate relationship with him, and really get to know him better. We will have more understanding once we get to know him on a deeper level. He will give us strength in doing his will. He will give us the ability to start to understand once we go into that deeper relationship with him. He will make things known to us by the Holy Spirit. JESUS CHRIST is the fullness in our lives if we will allow him to be.

Father, Please teach me more about you. I want to know you on a deeper level. I want to be more like you and share your love with others. I love you.. In JESUS name; AMEN..
Thank you JESUS... Thank you...

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Our Heart Inside

Have you had so much pain, anger, frustration, and hatred inside of you that you just thought you could not let it go. Have you held on to long to the past. Ever wonder why the things that have happened in your life have hapened to you. Are you trying so hard but still can't let go. I know God doesn't want us to hold on to the past. He wants us to live a full and happy life. Letting go is hard. Putting your faith in God is the first step. We have to let him control our life. He wants us to be as happy as we can be. He wants to be the one who is in control of our life. We are his. We do not belong to us. We belong to him. We are here to serve and worship him. We also can be very happy in this life. He wants us to spend the rest of our lives being happy. He doesn't want us to wait until we are getting ready to leave this world and then get happy and except him in our hearts. We have to start now. Be Happy in the LORD.. He will never leave us. You may not have everything you want, but you have everything you need. God will make sure of that. We have to let go of all the anger inside so we can start to enjoy this life. God doesn't hate anyone. Why should we. We all get frustated from time to time. We have to let that go and just keep going. Prayer is one great key to a happy life. The pain will feel inside, that is nothing compared to the way GOD felt when he gave his only son for our sins. Stop and think about that. He gave his ONLY SON for you and me. Makes you want to cry doesn't it. I know I would never be able to willingly give my son for you. I just couldn't do it. Not willingly. Think of the beating and torcher Jesus took for you and me. No one will ever have that kind of torcher. JESUS is the only one that will ever have that kind of pain. The Passion of Christ (movie), you may need to watch it. It doesn't compare to the beatings and torcher that Jesus actually went through. Jesus loves us so much. His Arms stretch out and wrap around you with all his LOVE. No one will ever love you the way JESUS loves you.
Thank you Jesus for your love....... 

John 3:16
For God so loved the word, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
John 3:17
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world: but that the world through him might be saved.
John 3:18
He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
John 3:19
And this is the condemnation, that the light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather that light, because their deeds were evil.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Positive Answers

You say:                                                   God says:                                                Bible Verse:
It's impossible                                          All things are possible                              Luke 18:27
I'm to tired                                               I will give you rest                                   Matt 11:28-30
Nobody really loves me                            I love you                                               John 3:1-6 & 34
I can't go on                                             My grace is sufficient                           II Cor 12:9 & Psalm 91:15
I can't figure things out                              I will direct your steps                             Proverbs 3:5-6
I can't do it                                              You can do all things                                Phil 4:13
I'm not able                                              I am able                                             II Cor 9:8
It's not worth it                                         It will be worth it                                     Romans 8:28
I can't forgive myself                                 I forgive you                                        1 John 1:9 & Romans 8:1
I can't manage                                          I will supply all your needs                      Phil 4:19
I'm afraid                                                  I have not given you a spirit of fear       II Tim 1:7
I'm always worried & frustrated               Cast all your cares on me                       I Peter 5:7
I'm not smart enough                                I give you wisdom                                 I Cor 1:30
I feel all alone                                           I will never leave you or forsake you        Hebrews 13:5



This is a handy little chart that I have in my Bible. I pull it out when I get to thinking about some of the things that go on in my life.

A PROMISE TO ALWAYS REMEMBER: JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Beautiful by MercyMe

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Prayers

DEUTERONOMY 4:7
     What other nation is so great as to have their gods near them the way the LORD OUR GOD is near us whenever we pray to him? (NIV)

     We must pray about everything we need. We must pray about everything we do. We must pray about everything we get. Prayer is very powerful. God answers prayers. He loves for us to come to him in our prayers. We should always be in prayer for everyone and for every need. If you do not know what to pray or how to pray, just close your eyes and hear the silence and let the words come from your heart. Some things, and people, we need to be praying for are our military those who are out there trying to protect us from this awful place of hatred and crimes. Pray for your church that it may continue to succeed in everything and your pastor and Sunday school teachers, pray they are guiding us in the right way and will continue to guide us.Pray for the love ones you have. Especially Pray for the LOST People in the world not just for your family that is lost but for all the lost people, Pray they will except Jesus in their hearts and come to know him. Jesus knows what our needs are and we will get what we need, not always what we want, Not what we think we need, but what Jesus knows we need.Our wants and needs are so different. If you are not sure how to pray. Talk to Jesus like you would talk to any other person. He knows your heart.He knows what you are thinking. He just wants to hear you say it. If you don't know what to say, be still and listen to God he will tell you what you are thinking. He will be so happy to hear your voice. You can feel the peace inside when you talk to him. Don't treat him like he is not there,cause He is always there. There are a lot of times where I feel like he isn't but I know in my heart he is. That's when he is carrying me. He has to be. Because he is always with us. Pray for the children to submit to the Lord and carry on what has been taught to them. They are going to be the future when we leave this world. Pray for parents that need help. Pray for teens in trouble. With all the influence in this world today, our children, teens, youth, pre youth need all the prayers they can get. Oh and there is STRENGTH in NUMBERS. The more prayer warriors there are, the more God hears. Pray that you will be the example for whomever the Lord puts in front of you. Pray for the elderly. Pray for the young and the old. Our lives are not ours, We are here to serve a LIVING SAVOUR, JESUS CHRIST. Pray for the ones that do not know what being full is. There are so many that do not know what it is like to have food to eat, they may have to scrap for food. Pray for the ones who are putting on the awful TV shows. They don't care what is on, as long as they make the money off of it. They do not care about your children. Pray for them. Don't just get mad about it, pray about it. I know its hard not to get mad about alot of things going on in this world. I myself am learning to pray more about things than get mad about it, and YES I still get mad. But I'm trying. No one is perfect, only JESUS. Pray for fathers, mothers, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, niece's, nephew's, grandparent's, great grandparent's, foster parent's, what ever you think about during the day just stop and pray. GOD LISTENS. Then give him all the PRAISE, HONOR AND GLORY, for being with you today and listening. PRAISE GOD, LOVE HIM, SHOW HIM YOU LOVE HIM. LIVE FOR HIM.

Thank you Father GOD for loving me, for listening to my prayers. I am so thankful for all you have done for me. I love you and I will do my best to be more like you. I will strive to pray for the needs of people and this nation. We are a Nation that was built on Christ and I would love to have it back. I love you Father. Thank you for your only Son that you gave for my sins.
 In Jesus Name Amen.